how does it feel - to be left?

i've never been left, i'm lucky one.

but you know for what i'm not lucky? it's so trivial, but... it sucks sooo much (XD) when u realise that person you like isn't even interested in u. moreover, he doesn't notice u. because we're like people from 2 absolutely different worlds and i can't find that damn bridge to unit us... i'm not left by my beloved, because my beloved hasn't ever been with me.

so ask yourself again, who is really lucky one: the one, who's left but tasted love or the one, who isn't left but couldn't feel all beauty of love?

i think I say it too loud... LOVE. hah. i just like him. and it's such a cut and dry situation-_- do you know, what's interesting? he likes my best friend.

well, actually i think so. and it's truth, if she doesn't lie me... don't think i doubt in her honesty, but she's a great lover to change the neligible details of some stories...

sooo.

there's a guy i like (let's call him mexx), who works in mexx boutique. me n my girls met him right there when i was lookin for shirt. all girls liked him, so did I) the next day my friend came to mexx and she told me that he suggested his help, i mean, served, and then said what was his name and told her a little bit about his job. so , he did the first step. does it mean, that he likes her? i know i know, these all are not the problems at all, life is still easy, but all this deal is for the first time with me, i'd never liked someone so much, so i don't wanna miss the chance.

maybe she just changed A LITTLE BIT the story? maybe he wasn't the first to say his name? when i asked her about this she, for sure, got angry. but what can i do if i know, that she MAY overshoot?

i do envy her, if this is the truth. he didn't say anything to me, though i've been in his shop for 3 times.

deep in my mind i wanna believe that she just lied about his first step. i know her personality, she's from that girls who easily steps first.

waitin' ur pieces!)

p.s. the picture below is a shot from katy's music video 'thinking of you'

SEE YAAAAAAA)

aaaaaaand i feel clumsy for my stupid design of blog) but let it be..)

DON'T FORGET 2 ANSWER THE QUESTION!...) it's right below)

i don't have to love someone to feel the love songs...

I was thinkin about things that make life great... for me it's the little things that become something huge for you when you wanna feel the happiness. for example, song.

just a song.

just pieces of sounds and bittersweet lyrics.

right now i'm listenin' to katy perry's thinking of you.

this is an amazing song 4 me!!

the videoclip touched me so much... and the song is... can't describe.

HOW do i get better, once i've had the best?

perfect question...) i adore the special atmosphere of 30s, 40s and 50s in america. such amazing and impressive times in the world...

got no friends right now, but i will ask: what do YOU think of all things i wrote? leave ur pieces...)